The GOOD fight

On the defeat of the anti-discrimination bill in Olympia, Cammermeyer says we need to learn from the experience and figure out to how to succeed next time. She says, "I continue to wonder how I can do more." She believes, "First, you live your truth. And you do that with dignity, with grace, and with visibility. Then you're active in your community," whether that's the gay community, your workplace, or any other sort. As you live your truth, she feels, the misconceptions others have of you because you're gay, or former military, or a Democrat, weaken.

As long as "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" exists and people can't serve openly, and as long as gays and lesbians in the state of Washington can be fired from their jobs simply because of their orientation, Cammermeyer has a mission. "Until that changes, those are the issues that I will be speaking out on behalf of," she says.

~Dr. Grethe Cammermeyer RN, PhD

This morning I watch 'Serving in Silence', starring Glenn Close. This movie is based on true coming out story of Col. Grethe Cammermeyer. It's worth seeing-

At least take a look at her website: http://www.cammermeyer.com

Growing Home

Yesterday I was asked to write a blog, now blogging is not my most favorite pastime but sometimes I produce something worth reading. Ha!

Today, she headed home. The last few weeks have been very stressful as trips home can be very eventful. We've rehearsed and roll played all possible scenarios, unfortunately *all* scenarios can't be forecasted.

This moment she is spending time with her aunt and her partner, reminiscing about her childhood, the good and I'm sure the bad. Talking of the present, how life has landed her obstacles and rewards, how she's finally happy.

I'm happy for her. Happy she can finally connect with family, this is long overdue. Little did she realize it would be a woman, whose name was scowled as a child. She finally meets this woman, as a woman, and admires everything she represents.

As she lay in bed, I'm sure she questions all the negativity that was casted upon this name. Why? Why would someone place their negative feelings and thoughts on their child?

As a mother, she's realizes the impact this has on an innocent child. How easily minds can be molded, how this is not fair.

Fingers will not be pointed on this trip and hopefully no future trip-home. Home should not represent shame, only growth. This is how she has grown. Home makes her grow.

I am proud of her growth. Never stop.

Friends

I spoke with a friend from college today. She is a strong woman that I have much deserving respect. We met my second year of college and have been friends for over 10 years. She is nearly 1800 miles away but never too far for a chat.

I appreciate the excitement in her voice when she hears mine. Recently we've both been living life and haven't spoken; today I decided to give her a shout. She always gives me a great big 'Hello!', even though its been months. It's amazing when time still passes and a conversation never seems distant.

I believe life has chosen for us to be distant friends, friends that will always make time to hear our happiness or sorrows but never judge if either has to get off the phone - abruptly.

It's forgiveness. It's trust. It's friendship.

It's not every day that we meet someone that will end up being our friend for life.

Sometimes...

Sometimes when I read her blog I cry...

Sometimes when I read her blog I cringe...

Somtimes when I read her blog I shed tears for her...

Sometimes when I read her blog I smile...

Sometimes when I read her blog I laugh...

and...

Sometimes when I read her blog I think, "I'm so lucky"...

...my favorite.

Her...

This is what I walked in to.

Adore her.

Got Hope? Harvey Milk

the unforseen mess

My desire to work for a relationship exceeds my desire to run and hide in my shell. We exploded and it was scary. We reached inside and played on each others insecurities.

One of us needed to stop and listen and you were tagged. You listened to my criticisms and you took it. I watched your body slump with disappointment but I knew you were listening intently. Hearing my pain but ready to learn. I commend your ability to put in the work.

Little did we know the messes we create actually bring us closer. They create a euphoric ending to our beginning.

Walking forward with you by my side, armour down.

Cars and Sexual Identities

What would your choice be if you made six figures? Would you choose a car that is the most commonly driven car of all Colorado...a black Subaru Outback? Or would you be original? Some would consider the Outback to be the most appropriate for our weather. However, I believe a little research must take place before putting down one of your figures.

I'm not one to exploit myself. I'm not one that tries to look like others. Most wouldn't even guess my sexual preference. I drive a Subaru, a white Subaru Impreza to be exact, some would say that I'm a hypocrite, however even though it's a Subaru I believe it's not the most commonly driven color and year of all existing Subarus.

My Subaru was purchased from a used car lot and it was the only one standing. I purchased my car based on how well it handled. I traded in my Honda Civic. Drove away a proud Subi owner.

A very wise man that goes by, PPMCC, said, "we're trying too hard to be like 'them'." 'Them' being the rest of the world. After pondering this thought for a while, I saw his point. Beginning our battle with equal rights and opportunities is a start. People are afraid, afraid that we might actually be legit.

This may be the case for those Black Subaru Outback owners. They just want to fit in, not stand out among the crowds of I-25 and downtown Denver. They have as many rights as all other black Subaru Outback owners.

I say, "Be yourself" and 'they'll' accept you for you-except you.

The way you are...

She has a way about her.  A way that only I can see.  Thankfully, no one else has snagged her, because ladies, 'she's mine'.  Even if you tasted her for a moment she never looked at you the way she looks at me.  I adore her.  

I love her more than 2009.

Happy New Year

Resolution:

1)  Take better care of myself (start running again)

2)  Pay attention to her details (love her)

3)  Utilize my time well with school 

4)  Pay off our Jan. 1, 2009 debt  (Who would of thought 2009 would start off at a hotel?)